it's quite a pity that our monthsary falls under the end of the month because we both don't have anything to spend on. that is, except for a few isaws, fishballs and cheese sticks at what we call "hepa lanes" outside the university. and don't forget the slurpee, it's a darling. so yesterday probably didn't end too well because we were not in good terms when we parted. i was being cynical at that time and at the same time worried cos i knew that he was bored with accompanying me watch my classmate rehearse for her pageant, which is today, and maybe it was also because of my hormones. i didn't text him this morning cos i deliberated that i just wanted to stay in bed and nap again, like what i used to do before while listening in this radio station where they play classical music, when we weren't together yet. then when i was having lunch, my dormmate told me at the dining area that he saw him at the dorm gate and he looked so cute cos he was just walking around and around. his beauty is his sin. he tends to be so vain.anyway, he was waiting for me for an hour and i took my time a lot.

it's a wonder how he fights for our relationship. i reckon there's no one against it... except me, occasionally, cos i often miss my fantasies on my plans of becoming a spinster. it's also a wonder how he can stand me. i am patient enough but the thing about me is my passive attitude towards things. i think i trained myself too much to become unemotional in front of other people, formal and talking only when needed, and serious. my sentiment is, if no one would be strict to him, who would? because he tends to act like a child most of the time and for the whole time i've been his friend, i realized that nobody tells him what to do and what not to do.

anyway, he loves me so much. i do too. but this time, i think the table was turned and i guess it's better.

i love this guy so much.

I usually exclaim "Happy Monday!" to my students every, wth, Monday.
I wonder if I stayed true to that.

Sincerely speaking, I was happy to talk to my students again because they help me wake up early in the morning. But when I opened my teacher's page today and found 31 students in total and 28 for today, plus one subclass for 20 minutes, I couldn't be more horrified in my life.

And to top this wonderful morning surprise, it's my second day of my monthly period, so hello 29 students + abdominal cramps = Such a happy monday.

I was craving for smoke breaks more than anything. Talking for 4 hours with only 10 minute breaks after one combo class after another is no laughing matter. It's stressful, srsly.

Everytime that my QA would pm me (no srs business anyway), I had to reject him because he knows my sched and I openly told my officemates before that I abhore distractions when I have classes. Well, we'd usually chat when we were free, but I guess my morning just would not allow that until December. *sigh* I also could not eat properly when I have my period so imagine dragging schedule in the morning plus abnormally small intake of lunch equals limp Micchie. But thank God, that wasn't the case. I was even able to make 3 MRs this afternoon in one go.

At the end of the day, I was simply determined to reward myself with something delicious. Hello Chinitas, so I had myself sipping on delicious Nai chaa XL for only 45 php. Yummeh~

Going home, I had this suddent impulse to have my hair cut. I was planning on a trim only to have the split ends gone, but my lovely hair stylist said to shorten it, so I let her have her way. It ended up nice and my hair looked thicker. She had no special technique to it, I think she's just great like that. What's amusing is, I went to the same salon around June or July and she was the one who cut my hair. When I entered the same time this November, she still remembered me and even what she did to my hair back then! I promised to come back to have my hair treated by her.

Thanks so much ate Gina! ^^

So I guess it's not at all a bad Monday, not so great either.




But Ripslyme, please let me rip you.
Please?
I wanna hip-hop tomorrow, please?


*goes LSS-ing ila. of baroque*
*reminisce*

Night!

うず！

Today was a day filled with mixed emotion.

I didn't have a problem at work today. Had great laughs with both my close co-workers and students alike. It's Thursday already and so far I've been perky the whole week. It's just that my world was never made perfect so I have a residing feeling that I'll flip mostly in some of my classes. Stuttering would be a frequent visitor as well. Yet by the lesson of the law of attraction, I shall not invite bad vibes. I should think that it will simply be the end of the work week tomorrow so that will be for free talking and be happy. Be spontaneous!

The sun was up high, just like the past four afternoons of this November's week. Though I have to say, I missed gazing at the blue sky with it's seemingly pristine clouds, arranged with great skill.

Today was also another session of the Pitogo Girls. It was my idea of meeting up after all. There's just some days when I just want to go somewhere and chill. Good thing my friends were free today also.

Met up with Aia in Megamall after she renewed her NBI then after ringing some dong dong dongs and fangirling over the SHINee boys, we met up with Mao in Jollibee. We all ate the 50 pesos spaghetti promo then hopped our way to the public jeepney to our favorite spot.

TIMY tiemz and Takumi tiemz filled our still hungry stomachs, as well as getting crazy with the staff at ちょと　スタープ. Ate Aileen was more then willing to have a pic of herself, amongst the 400 shots she already has according to one of our new friends from the same store. I was thick-skinned enough to even have Ate Lisa gave us the last of her cookie. XDDDD

たこやき　was the planned food for the day and we were more than willing to order. We certainly love 華for their food and we certainly rave for Aia for the one who cooked our food. As usual, I asked for the hot green tea. I've even gotten used to the taste of the cold oolong tea. Glad to say that my taste palettes have adjusted well to the Japanese taste. Well, at least for these drinks. And hot drinks certainly is a must for my line of job. 8Db So glad glad glad it's free. >D

After having our food, smoking for a while and discussing serious family matters and of course side craziness, we went inside the grocery, well, to target some things. I certainly have mine already. So money, please rain on me soon:

I forgot what the green bottled alcoholic drink is called but Ate Chris said that it is alcoholic and there's something inside I also forgot the name, but I remember it being sour. >D I just thought that it reminded me of Isshi's small bottle in their video in Shibuya AX. But rather that being alcoholic, I think it was ginger tea---good for the voice. 8D Then I also saw several flavors of Chu-hi. I want something to drink next time. And I don't even mean juice or soda. So as the apple love that I am, I'll try the green apple and red apple Chu-hi next time too. Then maybe, I'll pair it up with rice crackers! I miss rice crackers~

And so around 7, we flew back to Glorietta to take a jeep to home, only to be irritated by one assuming foreigner that we cannot speak English.

It's like this.

He went up to us asking for "massage"; using this keyword: MASSAGE. Man, you think we can't understand basic sentences? Even if that's a run-on, I'll comprehend your bullshit, sir. We are not level 1 students of English, okay? So alright, maybe it was just nerves that got to me (and it was effing hot already, I was sweating so my nerves was on the verge as well, and prickly) because I understood they were simply looking for a massage parlor. So I re-stated his question and asked: "Are you looking for a massage parlor?" (with as much accent that I can handle at 7:30 PM) and said we don't know so he should ask people on the other side of the road. Mao and Aia were as irritated as me. I have my own way of dealing with people like this, it's almost like impulse spoke for me. I think he was shocked that I can actually speak his language well and so thanked us and went ahead. No offense to Mao, but the guy thought it was only her that can speak English. What the errrf? Anybody in the Philippines can understand basic English, please learn the culture of the country you're staying at, sir. That's courtesy and respect.

Anyway *sigh* we were able to get home in peace.

So see you on Saturday again, gheis~ *3*

McDonals for the win.

RPRZNT.

the problem, lately, is that my patience can hardly take him. i can't handle the jealousy well. it's not voluntary, you know, and as much as i don't want to be bothered by that feeling, i can't, cos it's there. im thinking, i want to break up with him cos i don't want to hurt him and i don't want his actions to hurt me too. also, the problem with him is he likes attention so much. when we're with a group of people, he only notices me when nobody else does. now how cool is that? this sucks.

It's been a while since I felt this much of a fujoshi. Yet again, one great great love scene would boost them all up.

Just in time because I've been through a rough time a couple of days ago, and what better way but to pamper myself with visual pleasure, ne?

I guess that a lot of BL mangas are getting their film versions, which is true. I just can't help to still get disappointed whenever details would be cut off for the duration of a film. I should understand, we had this as a subject in college. But oh well.

Not too familiar with the Takumi-kun series, but I am willing now. Very willing indeed.

And since I am sleepy already and feeling a bit lazy to expound why, let me provide you with some visuals first:

DFASHBDJsadHASDBSAJDBHASKDBSANMDBSAJDBSADGHSAD!!!

The first movie didn't have this kind of intimacy!!! The scene was very intimate, with Gii feeding Takumi's body all over with gentle, but hungry kisses. There is this suppressed desperation in every touch and kiss. Well, that's how I saw it. I read also that the actor who played Gii this time is 9 years older than the actor who played the new Takumi, so I guess that explains why he handled the scene so damn well 8DDDDDDDDDDDDD

And~ Takumi looks like the lovechild of Ryo Nishikido and Kamenashi Kazuya?

O.o

I thought it was only Kame at first, but then at some angles, he have this masculine look of Ryo's face too!!

And my~my~

Resemblance of one scene to one of my most favorite scene in a BL doujinshi:

Inui x Kaido (Prince of Tennis)

Gii x Takumi

I love it when the seme seems so protective and dominating of the eherm at the same time. 8Db

okay, it's almost 10.

Time to drift to sleep.

おやし、お！！！

~Crash And Burn~

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

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i hardly write my thoughts anymore partly because i think i haven't had time anymore and partly because i think my grammar is sucking more as time passes by--as i lessen reading classics, that is. my mind isn't what it used to be anymore. it's evident on how i performed last sem: low grades and low grades because i'm not able to memorize stuffs easily as i used to before. now it takes me quite a lot of time before i digest whatever i am studying. or maybe because i'm losing focus meaning i'm more easily distracted than before. i don't know but i'm trying to understand. i've been doing some things for my brain to become as active as before because i need it to function well. im fixing papers for my application in med. God knows how much i want to be admitted in UST cos well, i had my pre-med here and it's kinda hard to be admitted here so it's quite a challenge and i need a Catholic school, else my spiritual life will vanish in an instant again and of course, my boyfriend's here. the last thing i need to worry about is his becoming gay again because it will have a very heavy impact in my emotions. i might not interact with people anymore cos i might conclude that everyone will leave me anyway.

anyway, it's the start of a new sem. my birthday passed by without so much depression. it was there but it wasn't as destructing as before. i had fun actually because i had been with him and he gave me white lisianthus and white star gazers in a vase and i liked it a lot, especially because they're white and the lillies smell heavenly. i also received a virginia woolf hardbound. before that day, he told me that my birthday's gonna be different because from now on, i had him to celebrate it with.

again, it's the start of a new sem. later at 4pm (which is my first class, haha), i'll be seeing my classmates again, not everyone, i think, because a lot failed in Comparative Anatomy of Vertebrate Embryology Lab (phew) or simply Embryo lab. it's a littlle saddening cos failing in another subject last sem, for a few of my classmates, would mean not taking UST med as an option anymore because students with 12+ units of fail will be strictly not admitted.

this sem, my major subject's gonna be Physiology and Ecology. 3 minors, ETAR, PGR and an SCL, whose course description i forgot. there's still glee club, and i think we're going to prepare for Himig Tomasino and my other org, whose gonna sing again for the Paskuhan Mass, yey. which means a lot of practices at night.

later at 12nn, im going to have a meeting with med's sc president because of a collaboration with them for our PreMed Talk and Tour. im way excited to be in med but for now, i need to go to our office and check if the executive vp of my org's foundation has said something about our opening of a blood bank acct here at the univ hospital.

I fell asleep this afternoon so I failed to do my intended activities for this afternoon.

Well, I've been pigging out most of the day so that might give light as to why I got sleepy on my way home. Not to mention the scorching afternoon sun wasn't at all helping.

But since I'm not sleepy yet, I just might:

• Do a draft of my Kagrra, fikku
• Make a drabble of Tomo x Tohya (because they are canon, orz)
• Make my visual family tree for our cracked comm
• Watch videos
• Stare at the monitor

So of course I have all the time in the world to do this, mmf. But I'll do the best that I can.

AAAAND~ tomorrow is Peppero Day in Korea so I will pester my student about chocolate and the likes. Peppero Day is similar to Valentines day in which friends or couples alike give gifts or chocolate or the Peppero (similar to a Pocky in Japan) to each other. This celebration is exclusive in Korea as Pocky day in Japan did not gaim much attention.

In my desire to find a Peppero today, I ended up buying PRETZ instead.

It's a bit cheap, much against my expectation. So this will be my sort of peppero tomorrow.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

I hope I'll be as perky tomorrow for my students!

がんばてます！